We love living in Denver. Like, love. The people we’ve met, the mountains we’ve explored, the food we’ve eaten — this state has been so kind to us so far.
Residency has been a bit of a doozy, and most weeks Tim spends more hours at the hospital than at home. So I’m learning how to balance work + being a mom + taking care of home-responsibilities without Tim being around a ton. It’s just an adjustment phase. There is so much to be thankful for…for healthy bodies, for family that lives close (oaks has the greatest aunts and uncles!), for being able to live in such a beautiful place, and for jobs that we love. Grace upon grace.
The most challenging adjustment the past few months has been motherhood. Oaks has come out of that sleepy-cuddly infant stage and is turning into an individual. Watching a child grow is one of the greatest joys in life…but, is this a safe place to say that it also wears me out more than anything else in the world? I’ve always considered myself a strong person — defiant, confident and brave. But having a child who carries some of those same character traits…geez. I’m undone. It’s a daily exercise in humility and faith.
A couple days ago I was sitting on an airplane with Oaks — well, actually standing in the back bouncing him and praying that he would please please please fall asleep (which he never did) — and scanning the crowd of people on the plane. Some were reading People or US Weekly, some snacking on peanuts and ginger ale, and some sleeping peacefully, nuzzled against the window or their neighbor. Normal, wonderfully mundane airplane things. And there I was, sleep-deprived with a loose front tooth (another story for another day), consoling a tired frustrated baby…waffling between extreme joy and jealousy. So happy that my sweet, independent Oaks was actually snuggling against my shoulder, a rarity…but also slightly resentful that I wasn’t able to tend to my own needs — because I need to read People, right?
So yeah. Yin-yang.
(pics are from a hike we took a couple weeks ago to St. Mary’s Glacier with my brother and sister-in-law. pardon the poor image quality — serious reminder that I need to pull out my real camera more often!)